Discouraged, But Not in Despair

2 Corinthians 4:8-10
"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body."

Today is a tough day. It's not devastating, as the long-term prognosis is still good. But Tammy is in even more pain, maybe the most so far. The doctor was in about an hour ago, and he said that the sores in her mouth (and throat) will last another four or five days. Tammy teared up a little when she heard that.

I asked him if the continuation of the sores was a sign of worse things to come, and he said no. He continues to say that they're very normal, especially for a patient going through her second bone-marrow transplant. There's always the risk that bacteria could form from the sores and move into her blood stream, but that's unlikely.

So it's just a matter of riding it out for another four or five days. They have changed the pain medicine to something stronger, which will help. But it's also knocked her out pretty good. I'm spending most of my time just watching her sleep.

Please pray that the pain is not too bad. We know this is the normal course of events, but it hurts me so much to watch her in pain.