"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am."
Tammy's first full day at home was eventful, and good. After a good night's sleep--I didn't wake her up at 2 a.m. to check her vitals--she went to the cancer clinic for the first time today. We were told that she would go every day for a while, until the doctors were confident that her blood levels were good enough that she could skip a day. The doctor who saw her today said she could skip tomorrow, then come in for lab work only on Thursday. She won't need a consultation until Monday.
It's hard to not get too excited, but we know that there's still a lot of ground to cover. There's still the risk that the chemo damaged some of her organs. There's also the risk that she might develop an unsafe level of graft versus host disease (GVHD), where the new bone marrow cells attack her organs because they see them as foreign. We want a little, but not too much. So far, everything looks good.
We know that God is in control. We also know that God is good, all the time. He was good when He helped Tammy get over the pneumonia and helped her get out of ICU a couple of weeks back. He was also good when she got very sick and had to go to ICU. He was good when Tammy developed the disease that started us down this long path. We can't base our opinions of God's goodness on our circumstances. That would be applying worldly wisdom to our situations.
God has a perfect plan for us. It may not be what we choose, but we must remember that this is a temporary home for us. If we allow God to rule in our lives, we can look at the most difficult situation as a blessing and as a way to bring Him glory.